So I was thinking today about the fact that in the past year or so of my college career, I've lost a lot of friends, and I was thinking about how everyone moves on, even me, so how do I find a balance between holding on and letting go? I recognize that people move on and their lives and situations change, leading them to maybe be people that are very different from the ones I was friends with. This recognition, perspective, and clarity is very difficult to have at the time, though. At the time this is happening, often I have felt like it is rejection. I have never been a person who has had a real aversion to change, but I also feel like I haven't had a whole lot of stability--no real roots anywhere, so I feel like I am trying to hold onto a lot of things and people.
Other than that thought, I've been pretty busy lately. I was in a play called 1972 about the women's liberation movement in 1972 and how a family dealt with it. I played the liberal daughter who falls in love with her hippy, free-loving friend Janice. We did the play to raise funds for ACCESS, the domestic violence and sexual assault shelter in Ames. We raised over $1400 for them! In the next couple of weeks I will be helping with the Social Justice Summit for ISU, as well as being in The Vagina Monologues for the 4th year in a row now! Those proceeds go to ACCESS, as well as to support women in Haiti this year. After those things are done, I can really start to focus even more on school and not feel like I'm going to go too crazy. It's not too bad now that the play is over!
I have started to work out more and am feeling really great about that. Unfortunately, the blizzard conditions here in Ames might hinder me from making it to the gym for the next couple of days. I don't think it will make me fall off the wagon, however, because I'm actually paying for this membership every month, and I don't want to waste my money. It's part of my self-betterment plan, and I'm feeling great! The other parts are mostly just eating a little bit healthier--healthier snacks, less snacks. It's going really well so far. Hopefully I can continue!
